I applied to this amazing opportunity and am waiting for a yes/no.

It requires many steps and after advancing through two I was getting a little hopeful but now that I haven't heard anything in a while it's sending me back through waves of desperate hopefulness and overwhelming hopelessness...

I know that sounds really dramatic. I just want to make the people who helped me get to where I am proud, you know? So many friends and mentors ask how it's going or what I've applied to and they're genuinely interested. When I get that first gig I have a lot of phone calls and emails to send.

I guess it's just that I have been out of school for a couple of months and the job search has been a little bleak. I have a laundry list of reasons why I want to go out and work - but I also want to show that all the effort and time people gave me wasn't wasted. 

So while I'm waiting for this decision, I'm trying to keep my mind occupied. I edited and delivered a few photos to someone I photographed last year, finally looked at my sister's graduation stuff, and am slowly working through any other work I've been avoiding.